So I have been in some serious flow of creation and manifesting and the whirlpool effects is starting to settle. I'm not sure if the excitement is fizzling or if it's just my aching gums from a wisdom tooth growing in that is making it all lack a bit a luster.
I think it's time to get back into gratitude attitude and allow myself to celebrate MYSELF!!!
So here goes CONGRATS to me!!! and admitting the shadow....
I have manifested a steady job at cafe gratitude the awesomest restaurant I have EVER encountered. Which took a year and a half to achieve. I was super excited the first month of training and opening, seeing the full circle of the whole creation, meeting celebs, the owners I have come to know as my spiritual gurus and making new amazing friends that follow their hearts and speak their truth. Now, here's the shadow that rears it's testy head....I was told I would be scheduled 2 days and 2 nights...perfect! 4 days a minimum wage job plus tips would cover rent and leave me open to audition etc. Well here we are 2 weeks after opening, now I'm working 4 days, one night, seeing the same faces, going to the same place, and just discovered it's going to be really hard for me to get covered because the other girls that host can't or won't take days. hmmm, not quite part of the perfect plan, and I don't do well in routine. Is this ego? Is this the voice that shows up to make things wrong that are really just in divine order? is this just my toothache putting me in a bad mood? is this all old baggage of not feeling free in commitments and being to available for others that don't seem available to me? IT'S ALL OF IT! This is a spiritual place, with spiritual people and clearings, and living in this vibrations brings up all these mirrors even more, and even faster. So here we go....moving through the discomfort and clearing it all out!
I have Manifested a Lead Role in a feature film called "Night Shift"! Really loved the monologues I read for the audition. It's basically about a girl who is putting her foot down to herself, a bad relationship and the universe and finally allowing herself to be fully expressed. This resonated with me so strongly. It's rare that you get those roles that you KNOW are meant for you! It's totally where I am now, Minus the asshole man who's married. My boyfriend has actually been pretty rad lately! haha And thankfully divorced long before we met....but I digress - There was a chance that I'd be traveling the Germany, but I just got the dates and it shoots in LA in August so again the shadow...is bummed...don't get to travel afterall. merrrrrr. It looks like only 3 days of shooting so not gonna miss much work which is good!
I faced a fear and sang in front of my man and recorded a heart song!
This song is pretty special to me and I had amazing people help me with it. And I just did it as a gift and a way to face a fear. It was quite a process that brought up some baggage for me and my man I think and was challenging to get done. It was more work than we anticipated. But we got through. Although it hasn't been quite received and I'm making up not listened to yet or liked...you know like if you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all. haha. But here's that shadow again with ego attachment to outcome and validation. But really who cares....the point is I did it! and I gave a gift!
I had gotten a raise on a casting job! And with that money I was able to catch up on a few things in life, to complete my space and invest in making life more efficient. Such as the computer I'm typing on now....I FINALLY HAVE WORD!! and INTERNET! Thank you to my amazing brother who built it for me and is a computer wiz! Was able to update websites today and order postcards in a jiffy! Shadow side creeps out to ask if I really needed to spend that extra money, and brings up fears of not having enough! I have to remind myself to stay in the flow and trust that we are always provided for and its an investment that will create even more to come in.....
My film LEADING LADIES is still kicking butt at festivals around the world! The wind is out of my sails a little bit here because I don't get to go to all these places "Mona" my character gets to go. And we shot it forever ago and I just want it to be SOLD already! But its pretty cool to think my face is traveling the world. I think I have to re-adjust my travel vision board with the words I get to see this places in person! haha But at the end of the day it's not about me. It's about the movie and the story and the message getting out there to change HEARTS & MINDS, that all we need is love, and there isn't just one way it should look!
SO here is my Gratitude list...
I am grateful for my new amazing job at Cafe Gratitude
I am grateful for my giving and talented boyfriend
I am grateful for my cousin living in LA now and blonding up my hair and cooking good food
I am grateful for my rad roommate and the honest and encouraging mirror we give each other and endless hours of sex and the city and bev hills 90210 when I want to veg
I am grateful for the extra money I had this past month
I am grateful for the healthy yummy food at work
I am grateful for NIGHT SHIFT
I am grateful for my role in the short Crimson
I am Grateful for the bus lines
I am grateful for this rain to slow me down
I am grateful for meeting and being able acknowledge Jason Mraz
I am grateful for all the LOVES that I work with
I am grateful for the acknowledgement I get from my co-workers
I am grateful for this computer and internet
I am grateful for my body knowing how to function healthy and on its own everyday
I am grateful for the sacrifice Japan made to show the world ITS TIME TO TAKE CARE OF EACHOTHER AND OUR EARTH
I am grateful for having today off to get some things done for myself.
I am grateful for pain relievers for my gums
I am grateful for heat and pjs
I am grateful for all that is to come.....and the knowingness of there is nowhere to GET TO and NOWHERE to GET.
BE LOVE
xo- me
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
How to care for Tulips
It's been a while since my last blog....or confession as it were. I havent picked up a new practice or program to share but it doesnt mean the "work" has stopped.
I found myself making a committment to focus on my acting again and imediately attracted another commercial casting job instead. Grateful for the money but still needed a creative release. So I created one!
I went out on a limb and faced a huge fear! HUGE! Singing a song I wrote about a love in my life who is a singer and has never heard me sing. That was a secret creative project I was working on and had friends help me with. I was so nervous and vulnerable putting my ego and heart on the line. But I'm still practicing moving through discomfort and being 100% committment to being fully expressed and this was I block I needed to face. So by the skin of my teeth I got it done. On Vday he recieved the song and I recieved dinner, tulips, lingerie and chocolates. After a big explanation on all the other things he tried to get me that weren't sterotypical vday gifts. haha. But I loved them anyway! It was Lovely. It was a loving exchange. I wish everyday could feel like that! Alowing ourselves to be thoughtful and vulnerable and know that we are safe and appreciated.
I feared I was going to be judged but I wasnt. I made him smile which made me smile. Although, something else got my concerned attention. This was the second tulips appearence that he brought to me, and it struck a strange cord with me. I don't feel like a Tulip. And tulips to me were always a flower to get your grandmother on easter. It felt a bit unromantic. I asked what it was about Tulips that he read off of me. Not the romantic or symbolic answer I was hoping for. I'm paraphrasing but basically an ex liked them, then he found an appreciation for them and saw how cool they were, Roses he felt were Overdone. Here's the thing. I have always loved Roses, they have healing qualities and rose water raises your vibrations, I also like wildflowers and lily's. Tulips are cool, I can dig them, infact I now have a new appreciation for them, but I didnt feel like they "fit" me, and I was hoping he had a reason from his perspective of how they did. But it wasnt about me, unfortunately. It was about him. And that's okay. But they are dead now on my balcony. I thought I killed them with my judgement and slight disappointment. Especially since after seeing them bloom and how rad they actually are, I regret talking badly about them! So I went online today to see if there was anyway to bring them back to life and this is what I found.....
How to Plant Tulips Outside After They Bloom in Pots | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/how_5471225_plant-outside-after-bloom-pots.html#ixzz1Fxul2E3J
"If you've ever received a pot of tulips as a gift, you might have experienced two emotions: excitement at the beauty of the flowers and disappointment that they would eventually die. Although tulips cannot be transplanted in bloom, you can transplant the tulip bulbs after the blooming cycle. The first year after a transplant, the bulbs will produce leaves but may not bloom, but by the second year, the bulbs should produce blooms like they did when in the pot."
IT'S GOING TO TAKE ANOTHER YEAR OR TWO BEFORE THEY BLOOM AGAIN!!!! I have to have alot of patience to recieve the full potential of this flower I never thought I'd want in the first place! OI....there is more symbolism in this than I care to admit, and although in the moment I didnt think he chose the right flowers for me. It was actually the PERFECT flower to represent our LOVE, our Relationship, our friendship, and our individual journies!
I'm happy to also share that another full circle "blooming Tulip Moment" moment which has been complete from a year ago is I have found a new home in the community of Cafe Gratitude LA. My new job, community, friends, peers, co-creators, way of being and reminder of higher purpose! I am so inspired by this place. I have been inspired by the books and the food and the employees and costumers and song lyrics attached to it by others who have been inspired. This looks like a bed of tulips and roses to be and I happy to frolic here right now!
I found myself making a committment to focus on my acting again and imediately attracted another commercial casting job instead. Grateful for the money but still needed a creative release. So I created one!
I went out on a limb and faced a huge fear! HUGE! Singing a song I wrote about a love in my life who is a singer and has never heard me sing. That was a secret creative project I was working on and had friends help me with. I was so nervous and vulnerable putting my ego and heart on the line. But I'm still practicing moving through discomfort and being 100% committment to being fully expressed and this was I block I needed to face. So by the skin of my teeth I got it done. On Vday he recieved the song and I recieved dinner, tulips, lingerie and chocolates. After a big explanation on all the other things he tried to get me that weren't sterotypical vday gifts. haha. But I loved them anyway! It was Lovely. It was a loving exchange. I wish everyday could feel like that! Alowing ourselves to be thoughtful and vulnerable and know that we are safe and appreciated.
I feared I was going to be judged but I wasnt. I made him smile which made me smile. Although, something else got my concerned attention. This was the second tulips appearence that he brought to me, and it struck a strange cord with me. I don't feel like a Tulip. And tulips to me were always a flower to get your grandmother on easter. It felt a bit unromantic. I asked what it was about Tulips that he read off of me. Not the romantic or symbolic answer I was hoping for. I'm paraphrasing but basically an ex liked them, then he found an appreciation for them and saw how cool they were, Roses he felt were Overdone. Here's the thing. I have always loved Roses, they have healing qualities and rose water raises your vibrations, I also like wildflowers and lily's. Tulips are cool, I can dig them, infact I now have a new appreciation for them, but I didnt feel like they "fit" me, and I was hoping he had a reason from his perspective of how they did. But it wasnt about me, unfortunately. It was about him. And that's okay. But they are dead now on my balcony. I thought I killed them with my judgement and slight disappointment. Especially since after seeing them bloom and how rad they actually are, I regret talking badly about them! So I went online today to see if there was anyway to bring them back to life and this is what I found.....
How to Plant Tulips Outside After They Bloom in Pots | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/how_5471225_plant-outside-after-bloom-pots.html#ixzz1Fxul2E3J
"If you've ever received a pot of tulips as a gift, you might have experienced two emotions: excitement at the beauty of the flowers and disappointment that they would eventually die. Although tulips cannot be transplanted in bloom, you can transplant the tulip bulbs after the blooming cycle. The first year after a transplant, the bulbs will produce leaves but may not bloom, but by the second year, the bulbs should produce blooms like they did when in the pot."
IT'S GOING TO TAKE ANOTHER YEAR OR TWO BEFORE THEY BLOOM AGAIN!!!! I have to have alot of patience to recieve the full potential of this flower I never thought I'd want in the first place! OI....there is more symbolism in this than I care to admit, and although in the moment I didnt think he chose the right flowers for me. It was actually the PERFECT flower to represent our LOVE, our Relationship, our friendship, and our individual journies!
I'm happy to also share that another full circle "blooming Tulip Moment" moment which has been complete from a year ago is I have found a new home in the community of Cafe Gratitude LA. My new job, community, friends, peers, co-creators, way of being and reminder of higher purpose! I am so inspired by this place. I have been inspired by the books and the food and the employees and costumers and song lyrics attached to it by others who have been inspired. This looks like a bed of tulips and roses to be and I happy to frolic here right now!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Abounding River DAY 42 - The last day of the book and first day of my own journey
DAY 42 - Abundance Current
I can't believe it's been 42 days of practicing gratitude and aboundance. ANd if I think about all that is happened to awaken my further on this journey it would make more sense that 42 months have gone by, not 42 weeks. Since just before Christmas big changes have been made with MY WAYS in Love, Work, Thoughts, and Beliefs. I'm still practicing however as it's not all perfected but I have great tools under my belt. And the most exciting part of it all is I have a manifestation come true with Cafe Gratitude in LA, something that my consciousness has been giving energy for a year now since meet Ryland in San Rafael and even better and more in alignment with what I want the rest of my life to look like I got a job there to boot!!! Happy Happy Joy Joy!
I have been working on creating more financial flow which looked like steady income to me. But in my 31 years I'm getting picky about where I put my time and energy. And this place is a place that I will feel good frequenting as I believe in everything they stand for and know first hand the benefits Their ideals have served in my life. Their Mantra BE LOVE has been a major transformational force for me the past year almost 2 that they came into my awareness. And I also came to remember that one of my dreams is to open up a cafe-live music venue. Thats is yummy, and magical and creative. So it would benefit me to get me feet wet in this industry again.
So with that here's is my last day of book work and where I'm heading into daily practice.
"all the way to heaven, is heaven"
Do you have enough money right now? YES!!!!
Have you ever missed a meal for lack of food? NO!!!
Have you ever NOT had a place to stay? NO!!!
Has god ever failed to provide the ESSENTIAL forms of Supply? NO!!
START PRACTICING THE BEING WEALTHY NOW! Be that, THIS IS IT! You're Life turned out! YOU ARE RICH!
River Guide - How could creator be anything but wealthy? How could anything be missing?
What I have come to realize is wealth and supply doesn't always look like green paper and coins. It looks like all kinds of things waiting to be appreciated and recognized. It looks like drinking water that is always available to us, it looks like a meal your date bought for you, it looks like frequent flyer miles, and a canned food drive, it looks like flowers blooming and ocean waves crashing, it looks like bees and ants always working in the flow of their earth duties, it sounds like music notesdancing in the air from strangly shaped wooden objects or sound waves that magically reach your car radio, it sounds like the birds singing and wind blowing through the trees. It feels like a full stomach, an inhalation of breath, a healthy immune system and a heated room when it's a blizzard outside. It's the closeness of oneness and the love that is always around us. We can share that loving supply no matter how big or small that pile of green paper looks like. We can give hugs and kisses, eye contact, a smile, or say I love you with nothing else attached or expected from it. We can all be musicians playing the strings of our hearts. Love is the biggest source of abundnace in the world. Without it we couldn't have multiplied for this many centuries and how lucky are we that the earth loves us unconditionally? To let us play here for as long as she has. So let's keep playing nice and appreciate and love her back! She has always given us everything that we have ever needed to live and thrive. It's all already HERE!
I honor creator and relish all that creator has given. I am abundance NOW
In and through me Creator expresses as abundnace. I give my life to being abundnace NOW.
I encourage all of you to take your own journey on the river. And at the very least find something new to be grateful for everyday, it will make you a magnet to have more to be grateful for!
www.cafegratitude.com
BE LOVE!!!
xo-me
I can't believe it's been 42 days of practicing gratitude and aboundance. ANd if I think about all that is happened to awaken my further on this journey it would make more sense that 42 months have gone by, not 42 weeks. Since just before Christmas big changes have been made with MY WAYS in Love, Work, Thoughts, and Beliefs. I'm still practicing however as it's not all perfected but I have great tools under my belt. And the most exciting part of it all is I have a manifestation come true with Cafe Gratitude in LA, something that my consciousness has been giving energy for a year now since meet Ryland in San Rafael and even better and more in alignment with what I want the rest of my life to look like I got a job there to boot!!! Happy Happy Joy Joy!
I have been working on creating more financial flow which looked like steady income to me. But in my 31 years I'm getting picky about where I put my time and energy. And this place is a place that I will feel good frequenting as I believe in everything they stand for and know first hand the benefits Their ideals have served in my life. Their Mantra BE LOVE has been a major transformational force for me the past year almost 2 that they came into my awareness. And I also came to remember that one of my dreams is to open up a cafe-live music venue. Thats is yummy, and magical and creative. So it would benefit me to get me feet wet in this industry again.
So with that here's is my last day of book work and where I'm heading into daily practice.
"all the way to heaven, is heaven"
Do you have enough money right now? YES!!!!
Have you ever missed a meal for lack of food? NO!!!
Have you ever NOT had a place to stay? NO!!!
Has god ever failed to provide the ESSENTIAL forms of Supply? NO!!
START PRACTICING THE BEING WEALTHY NOW! Be that, THIS IS IT! You're Life turned out! YOU ARE RICH!
River Guide - How could creator be anything but wealthy? How could anything be missing?
What I have come to realize is wealth and supply doesn't always look like green paper and coins. It looks like all kinds of things waiting to be appreciated and recognized. It looks like drinking water that is always available to us, it looks like a meal your date bought for you, it looks like frequent flyer miles, and a canned food drive, it looks like flowers blooming and ocean waves crashing, it looks like bees and ants always working in the flow of their earth duties, it sounds like music notesdancing in the air from strangly shaped wooden objects or sound waves that magically reach your car radio, it sounds like the birds singing and wind blowing through the trees. It feels like a full stomach, an inhalation of breath, a healthy immune system and a heated room when it's a blizzard outside. It's the closeness of oneness and the love that is always around us. We can share that loving supply no matter how big or small that pile of green paper looks like. We can give hugs and kisses, eye contact, a smile, or say I love you with nothing else attached or expected from it. We can all be musicians playing the strings of our hearts. Love is the biggest source of abundnace in the world. Without it we couldn't have multiplied for this many centuries and how lucky are we that the earth loves us unconditionally? To let us play here for as long as she has. So let's keep playing nice and appreciate and love her back! She has always given us everything that we have ever needed to live and thrive. It's all already HERE!
I honor creator and relish all that creator has given. I am abundance NOW
In and through me Creator expresses as abundnace. I give my life to being abundnace NOW.
I encourage all of you to take your own journey on the river. And at the very least find something new to be grateful for everyday, it will make you a magnet to have more to be grateful for!
www.cafegratitude.com
BE LOVE!!!
xo-me
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Abounding River - DAY 41
Generosity Current -
Are you as generous as you would like to be? What act could you take today that would stretch that for you?
River guide - Generosity breaks down all barriers of separation.
If I take a look at most of my close relationships, they are pretty equal in giving a recieving. I would like to be ale to be more generous financially and with time for friends. Not having a car forces me to be very selective about traveling and the time invested in that being on the other end of town. Also I have to be generous to myself, and gives my self enough relaxation time to reguventate myself from being sick the past week. If I am completely honest most of my attention the past 2 weeks has been on my relationship, partly to work through some discomfort and also to celebrate new yummy love. But I am recognizing where I could give more of myself to other close friends lately. Now that I have my voice 90% back I should call some people back!
There's a good little list that I put together that could certainly help me stretch myself. Such as putting money aside to pay off at leas a little debt, and being generous to myself by putting a little away in savings.
I am love me being present to love. I am the presence of wholeness.
Here's to more checks coming in!
xo-me
Are you as generous as you would like to be? What act could you take today that would stretch that for you?
River guide - Generosity breaks down all barriers of separation.
If I take a look at most of my close relationships, they are pretty equal in giving a recieving. I would like to be ale to be more generous financially and with time for friends. Not having a car forces me to be very selective about traveling and the time invested in that being on the other end of town. Also I have to be generous to myself, and gives my self enough relaxation time to reguventate myself from being sick the past week. If I am completely honest most of my attention the past 2 weeks has been on my relationship, partly to work through some discomfort and also to celebrate new yummy love. But I am recognizing where I could give more of myself to other close friends lately. Now that I have my voice 90% back I should call some people back!
There's a good little list that I put together that could certainly help me stretch myself. Such as putting money aside to pay off at leas a little debt, and being generous to myself by putting a little away in savings.
I am love me being present to love. I am the presence of wholeness.
Here's to more checks coming in!
xo-me
Monday, January 31, 2011
Abounding River Day 40!!! only 2 more days....
Day 40 - Gratitude Current
In the mirror, express gratitude to yourself for being a grateful person. Thank yourself for being a beacon of gratitude to the world. In the mirror, thank your parents for getting their job done and for being the perfect parents for you.
THANK YOU DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE FOR BEING A GRATEFUL PERSON. THANK YOU MOM AND DAD FOR BEING THE PERFECT PARENTS I NEEDED FOR THIS JOURNEY!
river guide - a life of gratitude is a life of awe.
I greet everything Love me is with gratitude. Being grateful is my living prayer.
You relish and bless all that Love me is. You embody gratitude.
Today I am grateful for my man
I am grateful for my new job coming at cafe gratitude
I am grateful for the zpak
i am grateful for my bed
I am grateful for my legs
i am grateful for my ears and eyes and heart
I am grateful for my bank card
I am grateful for the beach
I am grateful for my guitar
I am grateful for heat
I am grateful for coffee
I am grateful for music that inpires me
xo-me
In the mirror, express gratitude to yourself for being a grateful person. Thank yourself for being a beacon of gratitude to the world. In the mirror, thank your parents for getting their job done and for being the perfect parents for you.
THANK YOU DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE FOR BEING A GRATEFUL PERSON. THANK YOU MOM AND DAD FOR BEING THE PERFECT PARENTS I NEEDED FOR THIS JOURNEY!
river guide - a life of gratitude is a life of awe.
I greet everything Love me is with gratitude. Being grateful is my living prayer.
You relish and bless all that Love me is. You embody gratitude.
Today I am grateful for my man
I am grateful for my new job coming at cafe gratitude
I am grateful for the zpak
i am grateful for my bed
I am grateful for my legs
i am grateful for my ears and eyes and heart
I am grateful for my bank card
I am grateful for the beach
I am grateful for my guitar
I am grateful for heat
I am grateful for coffee
I am grateful for music that inpires me
xo-me
Abounding River Day 35 - 39
Day 35 - Generosity Current
"Kindness costs nothing"
Consider all thingd you have that take up space, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. Consider everything that you aren't relishing is occupying the space of something new.
RELEASE something today making space for the NEW.
Things I have not been relishing....
Fighting with my man
some of my clothes that I'm tired of wearing
missing buses
sadness, lack thought and feelings, obsessing and overanalyzing.
bipolar industry
NO MORE ACTING OUT!!! ONLY ACTING UP!!
As I give, I bless the whole of myself. As I recieve, I honor all that spirit Goddess me is.
DAY 36 - Abundance Current
Better is a handful of quietness than both hands full together with toil and grasping for the wind.
Are you a great recieving? Where do you resist recieving?
I am much better at recieving than I used to be be I'm better at letting a guy pay or a friend taking the tab or even recieving compliments. Most of the time I can say Thank you without arguing it or deflecting first.
Some areas I resist recieving....job opportunities, because it doesn'y look exactly the way I'd "WANT" it. Being Vulnerable or chance looking bad. Talking to Famous people I'm working near, Connecting to home more, Money on some level becuase I havent created abundance for myself that looks bigger than what I have been used to yet....
MAKE A REQUEST OF SOMEONE, To recieve some form of supply.
"It's not about being granted it's about making the request"
Request to Help recording
Request for an overdue date....(he made request me first)
Request to be seen by CDs and Producers of films and TV I want to be a part of.
I am Love so I am Worthiness now. I relish my attention on being fulfilled.
You are love present to your wholeness now.
DAY 37 - Creation current
"Percepion is a learned phenomenon."
Introduce your self as your spirit name. HELLO I AM DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE! Hey just in case you didnt know, my name is really Divine Thriving Nicole.
RIVER GUIDE - If you can't call yourself Divine Thriving Nicole Than what are you committed to?
Might worry someone else will think I'm being a silly hippy and won't or can't be takin seriously.
Who I am being thinking, speaking, believing, acting, and attituding creates my experience of life. Whatever experience I am having I am creating. I now choose to love my life.
Knowing you create your experience of life you choose to love your life now.
Where am I not taking responsiblity today? Making assumptions in work and love. Could be more clear and attentive to details before the issues arise. I am choosing to be exactly where I am, and how I feel. I can choose to feel differently or change my circumstance.
I am divine creation. I honor creator by adoring myself.
DAY 38 - Worth Current
If you could be known for any quality of being, what would you be known for? Look in the mirror and acknowledge yourself for being that way.
I want to be known to be inspirational. I want to create and ispire others to create and grow and change for all of our highest good. So I want to be known for being inspirational!
I am a divine creation. I honor Creator by adoring myself.
DAY 39 - Love and Acceptance
What do you resist or not accept about your finances.
Well this one is easy, I dont accept my debt, lack of savings, or that I don't have steady income. That I need to create more abundance by raising my standards of work and asking for more.
What could ou say that would create the same situation in acceptance.
I am perfectly takin care of Right now!
River guide - What you resist will persist. Loving and accepting gets you out of your own way.
Creator is being my life and being all of life. I trust creator and bless creator in and as everything.
Before bed... did you extend Love to everyone you encountered? Imagine extending more!! Had a fun day of celebrating the music of Bill withers and his daughter Kori who is amazing. Spent time with my good friend who's moving soon who is also very talented singer and my man and friends celebrating the fact that I got a Job at CAFE GRATITUDE, and They had an AMAZING SHOW, got people dancing in there seats to the music, gave love to doggies and made love to my babe. All in all a pretty awesome day! ANd the morning has been lovely too.
more of this please!
xo-me
okay
"Kindness costs nothing"
Consider all thingd you have that take up space, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. Consider everything that you aren't relishing is occupying the space of something new.
RELEASE something today making space for the NEW.
Things I have not been relishing....
Fighting with my man
some of my clothes that I'm tired of wearing
missing buses
sadness, lack thought and feelings, obsessing and overanalyzing.
bipolar industry
NO MORE ACTING OUT!!! ONLY ACTING UP!!
As I give, I bless the whole of myself. As I recieve, I honor all that spirit Goddess me is.
DAY 36 - Abundance Current
Better is a handful of quietness than both hands full together with toil and grasping for the wind.
Are you a great recieving? Where do you resist recieving?
I am much better at recieving than I used to be be I'm better at letting a guy pay or a friend taking the tab or even recieving compliments. Most of the time I can say Thank you without arguing it or deflecting first.
Some areas I resist recieving....job opportunities, because it doesn'y look exactly the way I'd "WANT" it. Being Vulnerable or chance looking bad. Talking to Famous people I'm working near, Connecting to home more, Money on some level becuase I havent created abundance for myself that looks bigger than what I have been used to yet....
MAKE A REQUEST OF SOMEONE, To recieve some form of supply.
"It's not about being granted it's about making the request"
Request to Help recording
Request for an overdue date....(he made request me first)
Request to be seen by CDs and Producers of films and TV I want to be a part of.
I am Love so I am Worthiness now. I relish my attention on being fulfilled.
You are love present to your wholeness now.
DAY 37 - Creation current
"Percepion is a learned phenomenon."
Introduce your self as your spirit name. HELLO I AM DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE! Hey just in case you didnt know, my name is really Divine Thriving Nicole.
RIVER GUIDE - If you can't call yourself Divine Thriving Nicole Than what are you committed to?
Might worry someone else will think I'm being a silly hippy and won't or can't be takin seriously.
Who I am being thinking, speaking, believing, acting, and attituding creates my experience of life. Whatever experience I am having I am creating. I now choose to love my life.
Knowing you create your experience of life you choose to love your life now.
Where am I not taking responsiblity today? Making assumptions in work and love. Could be more clear and attentive to details before the issues arise. I am choosing to be exactly where I am, and how I feel. I can choose to feel differently or change my circumstance.
I am divine creation. I honor creator by adoring myself.
DAY 38 - Worth Current
If you could be known for any quality of being, what would you be known for? Look in the mirror and acknowledge yourself for being that way.
I want to be known to be inspirational. I want to create and ispire others to create and grow and change for all of our highest good. So I want to be known for being inspirational!
I am a divine creation. I honor Creator by adoring myself.
DAY 39 - Love and Acceptance
What do you resist or not accept about your finances.
Well this one is easy, I dont accept my debt, lack of savings, or that I don't have steady income. That I need to create more abundance by raising my standards of work and asking for more.
What could ou say that would create the same situation in acceptance.
I am perfectly takin care of Right now!
River guide - What you resist will persist. Loving and accepting gets you out of your own way.
Creator is being my life and being all of life. I trust creator and bless creator in and as everything.
Before bed... did you extend Love to everyone you encountered? Imagine extending more!! Had a fun day of celebrating the music of Bill withers and his daughter Kori who is amazing. Spent time with my good friend who's moving soon who is also very talented singer and my man and friends celebrating the fact that I got a Job at CAFE GRATITUDE, and They had an AMAZING SHOW, got people dancing in there seats to the music, gave love to doggies and made love to my babe. All in all a pretty awesome day! ANd the morning has been lovely too.
more of this please!
xo-me
okay
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Abounding River - 32 - 34 - more catch up to come
DAY 32 - Worth
"I'm the adoring love of the creator' - SAY IT OUT LOUD, and what is your experience.
What I want wants me, Iam everything Creator is. I love and value myslef as creator's creation.
I am creator's masterpiece. I adore myself.
The before bed exercise helped the most today. Thank creator you for revealing to you what area in your life you can be more loving to yourself. My "love life". Taking my own power back, not allowing myself to feel like victim of circumstance, and if something is unconfortable for me I need to do something to change it and not wait for someone else to change it for me. As uncomfortable as that conversation was the fact that I was about to take something into my own hands, light the fire under an ass to clear something that has been long over due to move forward, and just that simple act of facing assumption relieved 90% of the ick I've been feeling lately. SPEAK UP, STAND UP, OWN YOUR POWER, YOUR WORTH IT!!!
DAY 33 - Love & Acceptance current
"to love for the sake of being loved is human, to love for the sake of loving is Angelic" - Alphonse de LaMartine
Listen to someone is your life that everything they say is "GOLD", grant them loving acceptance.
WOAH - had pretty insense convos with Dad and my guy! Clearing, holding space, standing up for myself, accepting them for their processes, testing my patience and emotions, and trying real hard to listen and BELIEVE their word as GOLDEN, and just saying whats absolutely nessessary for me. rough day, rough convos of breaking patterns and habits but the light at the end of the tunnel was I was able to feel weight lifted at the end of both conversations.
river guide - LOVE is everywhere and everyone!
another great before bed exercise - See every cell of your body working perfectly recieving what it requires....(i've been sick so thats interesting) and then put your attention on part of the whole that you dont accept as perfect, (person, condition, event). Next Thank LOVE for revealing to you the opportunity this part of the whole is. Be grateful for the Guidance and log any appropriate action to take.
I need to reach out to someone, and do a clearing for me. Someone I got caught in an awkward triangle in not from my own making, and I need to send this situation Love and trust!
DAY 34 - gratitude current
"We have infinite reasons to be happy, and a serious responsiblity to not be too serious" - Maharishi Mahesh Yogi
With whom can you be more grateful for Right now? Today take actions to express that gratitude.
my dad for teaching me guitar
my guy for clearing the cloud thats been holding us back.
I still could probably do something special for them, I have a rad gift idea for vday- which I'll be facing a fear on too.
to be contunued....
"I'm the adoring love of the creator' - SAY IT OUT LOUD, and what is your experience.
What I want wants me, Iam everything Creator is. I love and value myslef as creator's creation.
I am creator's masterpiece. I adore myself.
The before bed exercise helped the most today. Thank creator you for revealing to you what area in your life you can be more loving to yourself. My "love life". Taking my own power back, not allowing myself to feel like victim of circumstance, and if something is unconfortable for me I need to do something to change it and not wait for someone else to change it for me. As uncomfortable as that conversation was the fact that I was about to take something into my own hands, light the fire under an ass to clear something that has been long over due to move forward, and just that simple act of facing assumption relieved 90% of the ick I've been feeling lately. SPEAK UP, STAND UP, OWN YOUR POWER, YOUR WORTH IT!!!
DAY 33 - Love & Acceptance current
"to love for the sake of being loved is human, to love for the sake of loving is Angelic" - Alphonse de LaMartine
Listen to someone is your life that everything they say is "GOLD", grant them loving acceptance.
WOAH - had pretty insense convos with Dad and my guy! Clearing, holding space, standing up for myself, accepting them for their processes, testing my patience and emotions, and trying real hard to listen and BELIEVE their word as GOLDEN, and just saying whats absolutely nessessary for me. rough day, rough convos of breaking patterns and habits but the light at the end of the tunnel was I was able to feel weight lifted at the end of both conversations.
river guide - LOVE is everywhere and everyone!
another great before bed exercise - See every cell of your body working perfectly recieving what it requires....(i've been sick so thats interesting) and then put your attention on part of the whole that you dont accept as perfect, (person, condition, event). Next Thank LOVE for revealing to you the opportunity this part of the whole is. Be grateful for the Guidance and log any appropriate action to take.
I need to reach out to someone, and do a clearing for me. Someone I got caught in an awkward triangle in not from my own making, and I need to send this situation Love and trust!
DAY 34 - gratitude current
"We have infinite reasons to be happy, and a serious responsiblity to not be too serious" - Maharishi Mahesh Yogi
With whom can you be more grateful for Right now? Today take actions to express that gratitude.
my dad for teaching me guitar
my guy for clearing the cloud thats been holding us back.
I still could probably do something special for them, I have a rad gift idea for vday- which I'll be facing a fear on too.
to be contunued....
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