Bare with me...this is being typed with my thumbs, and I don't have the patience to make letters capts. So, there's that...and I didn't break my fingers, I just have to do this from my phone.
Today I got to work with my roomie again, which was helpful. Love there two quotes
When you realize nothing is lacking, the whole world belongs to you
You are the one who creates whether you are fulfilled or not
We had to list 3 things we wants the most. Then close your eyes and be fulfilled in those three things.
1. Love - the perfect divinely matched man for me right now
2. Career - the perfect, great paying ACTing role
3. Hybrid car - I had to walk a lot today....with grocery bags
Its interesting to me that no matter how many times I say I need or want to focus on my career love is always the first thing that comes into my mind, and no matter how many casting jobs I do I always come back to wanting to act....the car would be the icing, especially since tomorrow I have to gets up 2 hours earlier than most to travel to noho for 2 hours.
There's something else I found HAVE TO...there is no have to, I want to, I wanted to until I thought about how early I had to get up, and then if I'm honest I went through a whole pros and cons list with myself, about obligations and owning worth and I'm not getting paid and what am I neede for, and but I could do this and that and make it worth it, but maybe I should be there anyway.....CRAZY HEAD TALK....what I came out with.....be impeccable with your word...thank you for agreements...so go because I said I would, but now I know, to specify days hours job duties more clearly next time, with peers but mostly with myself. I invest so much of myself in everything but then get burt out and tend to rid it away, in some form or another, gotta stop that can't always just cut and run......closure and ending a cycle is also part of the journey, otherwise you aren't really finishing anything, and maybe that's why I keep getting the same lessons in different packaging.....huh? My thumbs are wiser than I thought.
Today I am aware of magical me as abundance. I am all that magic is now.
I am grateful for being able to sleep in today, for the sun shining, for my phone, for rumor mill, for movies, for this casting job, for the food in my fridge, for the man I felt like giving 2 dollars to, for compliments, for signs from the universe, from farmers and markets, for my photographer friends that helped me build my acting site with great pictures, for the money I have and was able to invest in my actor self today, my new skin products, my roomies support and mirror, and my amazingly talented parents! And anyone I have ever shared a loving exchange with.
Oooh almost forgot, from day five something that you are unwilling to release? Sooooo, I'm throwing away the few articles of the 5 year ex I have. Its time I ve carried it to omg, 6 apartments now! Woah, yeah always thinking I ll mail it back, I ll find the address, he ask for it! No fuck that darkside for a minute, screw it, I don't owe him carrying it around anymore and its another reflection of I cared for his stuff more than him, so who's really more free in this situation? Geez. Thank you for the final mirror my old friend wherever you are in VA, be well and say goodbye to your things!!!! Yeh!!!
I am fulfilled in this now moment, I am present to being abundance now!
Do it! It feels good
Xo me
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