Day 8 of 30 Days of Success...late

Oh boy. I screwed up last night. And now I have literally been purging all morning cause I was bad to myself. I think I got sicker because of energy I have been in with the challenge. Major shedding and releasing if you will.

I started off good on my day 8.
Woke up early
Signed up at BG commercial casting
I somehow had the role of being the train Angel. I taught 3 people how to use the machine. And then a unlikely friend was made who I had a spirit talk with.
Took train up to Newhall to see a play SIDEMAN. But only caught the second half.

My actor friend was in it and it was at a Theater that I have done tons of shows at. The Repretory East Playhouse. Art again paralelling life. The closing monologue made me cry. He spoke of his father and how brillant of a trumpet player he was and how connected he was when he was playing, but how disconnected he seemed when he wasnt. The mother went downhill in the story, she suffered manic depression and alcoholism from years broken promises and emotional neglect.

Well, then I went downhill. Not all at once. About 3 extremely strong magaritas later. What started out as a bite to eat with director and actor friends, turned into fun talks about acting, and I did what I do....I cant help myself! started my lightwork of encouraging people to follow there hearts! haha I CANT HELP IT!

I was planning to crash at my friends anyways since we are going to a concert tonight. What I wasnt planning was throwing up all night and morning. I literally felt like I drank 8 margaritas, and ewwww I even had a cigarette. I'm so mad at myself today. That was like 5 steps backwards. But hey, I remember how much I dont like or need cigarettes and I think I ready to never drink again!

I wont say never, but if 3 drinks does that to me now??? My body is obviously telling me something. I need to be clear. I need to be healthy. I need to change my language. I am NOW clear. I am NOW healthy and vital.

btw...the good thing about trains is you can catch up your reading. I revisited a book called ASK AND IT IS GIVEN. There's some proserity games in there I plan to play!

Okay I have to figure out how to feel human again.

Yeah, Dave Matthews...inspire me!
Clap your hands and say you do believe in fairies! I need help with my light.

Thank you!
xo-me