new dance and dance partner

Oh, breaking up is hard to do. Mostly because I think we fear the unknown, or are afraid to grow beyond what this relationship has taught us to this point or we just like feeling stuck and having something to bitch about. There's so many reasons ranging from guilt to lust to co-dependent but when the jig is up, it's up. The grim reaper to cupids arrow is bound to stop by if both parties are not 100%, for themselves and eachother! Because let's face it, a healthy relationship isnt possible with both those things NOT in alignment. One person always ends up resistant or loving more than the other.

Guess who I am normally? The first week was a doozy the reminders everywhere, look-alike cars, mutual friends, songs, numbers, you name it it shows up and tests your emotions. But I would like to offer a little gift I discovered, if you happen to be going through a breakup, breakdown, loss or random sadness take a trip to my job....cafe gratitude. This has been amazing alchemy for me. Everyday I get to "Clear" bring up my shadow and emotions and release it, and get my consciousness shifted to a higher brighter level and be acknowledged. This was the first time in a breakup that I have ever been around so many people that tell me how much they appreciate me, and how radd I am, how great I look and reminded what amazing men are out there to be discovered. Or women if you roll that way. I have the pleasure of being surrounded by magical, conscious, healing, lightworker beings that happen to also be beautiful. What a gift. The best mirror I could ask for.

Yes, I have had my little emotional upheavals of sadness and anger in the letting go process and that's all that it is, a process. One more transformation of life. One more place I can learn, one more place I can take my love to new level. I need to be angry for a little bit longer, maybe, butit's all good cause I know I deserve 100%. I have been getting a reflection of what I really want, almost daily! I'm worth it! I'm worth the wait!!! And I'm grateful for being here. So, Here we are! Standing at the cliff of transformation. Now what are we going to do with this new experience? LEAP into the unknown and FLY!

Love
me xo