Day 40 - Gratitude Current
In the mirror, express gratitude to yourself for being a grateful person. Thank yourself for being a beacon of gratitude to the world. In the mirror, thank your parents for getting their job done and for being the perfect parents for you.
THANK YOU DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE FOR BEING A GRATEFUL PERSON. THANK YOU MOM AND DAD FOR BEING THE PERFECT PARENTS I NEEDED FOR THIS JOURNEY!
river guide - a life of gratitude is a life of awe.
I greet everything Love me is with gratitude. Being grateful is my living prayer.
You relish and bless all that Love me is. You embody gratitude.
Today I am grateful for my man
I am grateful for my new job coming at cafe gratitude
I am grateful for the zpak
i am grateful for my bed
I am grateful for my legs
i am grateful for my ears and eyes and heart
I am grateful for my bank card
I am grateful for the beach
I am grateful for my guitar
I am grateful for heat
I am grateful for coffee
I am grateful for music that inpires me
xo-me
Monday, January 31, 2011
Abounding River Day 35 - 39
Day 35 - Generosity Current
"Kindness costs nothing"
Consider all thingd you have that take up space, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. Consider everything that you aren't relishing is occupying the space of something new.
RELEASE something today making space for the NEW.
Things I have not been relishing....
Fighting with my man
some of my clothes that I'm tired of wearing
missing buses
sadness, lack thought and feelings, obsessing and overanalyzing.
bipolar industry
NO MORE ACTING OUT!!! ONLY ACTING UP!!
As I give, I bless the whole of myself. As I recieve, I honor all that spirit Goddess me is.
DAY 36 - Abundance Current
Better is a handful of quietness than both hands full together with toil and grasping for the wind.
Are you a great recieving? Where do you resist recieving?
I am much better at recieving than I used to be be I'm better at letting a guy pay or a friend taking the tab or even recieving compliments. Most of the time I can say Thank you without arguing it or deflecting first.
Some areas I resist recieving....job opportunities, because it doesn'y look exactly the way I'd "WANT" it. Being Vulnerable or chance looking bad. Talking to Famous people I'm working near, Connecting to home more, Money on some level becuase I havent created abundance for myself that looks bigger than what I have been used to yet....
MAKE A REQUEST OF SOMEONE, To recieve some form of supply.
"It's not about being granted it's about making the request"
Request to Help recording
Request for an overdue date....(he made request me first)
Request to be seen by CDs and Producers of films and TV I want to be a part of.
I am Love so I am Worthiness now. I relish my attention on being fulfilled.
You are love present to your wholeness now.
DAY 37 - Creation current
"Percepion is a learned phenomenon."
Introduce your self as your spirit name. HELLO I AM DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE! Hey just in case you didnt know, my name is really Divine Thriving Nicole.
RIVER GUIDE - If you can't call yourself Divine Thriving Nicole Than what are you committed to?
Might worry someone else will think I'm being a silly hippy and won't or can't be takin seriously.
Who I am being thinking, speaking, believing, acting, and attituding creates my experience of life. Whatever experience I am having I am creating. I now choose to love my life.
Knowing you create your experience of life you choose to love your life now.
Where am I not taking responsiblity today? Making assumptions in work and love. Could be more clear and attentive to details before the issues arise. I am choosing to be exactly where I am, and how I feel. I can choose to feel differently or change my circumstance.
I am divine creation. I honor creator by adoring myself.
DAY 38 - Worth Current
If you could be known for any quality of being, what would you be known for? Look in the mirror and acknowledge yourself for being that way.
I want to be known to be inspirational. I want to create and ispire others to create and grow and change for all of our highest good. So I want to be known for being inspirational!
I am a divine creation. I honor Creator by adoring myself.
DAY 39 - Love and Acceptance
What do you resist or not accept about your finances.
Well this one is easy, I dont accept my debt, lack of savings, or that I don't have steady income. That I need to create more abundance by raising my standards of work and asking for more.
What could ou say that would create the same situation in acceptance.
I am perfectly takin care of Right now!
River guide - What you resist will persist. Loving and accepting gets you out of your own way.
Creator is being my life and being all of life. I trust creator and bless creator in and as everything.
Before bed... did you extend Love to everyone you encountered? Imagine extending more!! Had a fun day of celebrating the music of Bill withers and his daughter Kori who is amazing. Spent time with my good friend who's moving soon who is also very talented singer and my man and friends celebrating the fact that I got a Job at CAFE GRATITUDE, and They had an AMAZING SHOW, got people dancing in there seats to the music, gave love to doggies and made love to my babe. All in all a pretty awesome day! ANd the morning has been lovely too.
more of this please!
xo-me
okay
"Kindness costs nothing"
Consider all thingd you have that take up space, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. Consider everything that you aren't relishing is occupying the space of something new.
RELEASE something today making space for the NEW.
Things I have not been relishing....
Fighting with my man
some of my clothes that I'm tired of wearing
missing buses
sadness, lack thought and feelings, obsessing and overanalyzing.
bipolar industry
NO MORE ACTING OUT!!! ONLY ACTING UP!!
As I give, I bless the whole of myself. As I recieve, I honor all that spirit Goddess me is.
DAY 36 - Abundance Current
Better is a handful of quietness than both hands full together with toil and grasping for the wind.
Are you a great recieving? Where do you resist recieving?
I am much better at recieving than I used to be be I'm better at letting a guy pay or a friend taking the tab or even recieving compliments. Most of the time I can say Thank you without arguing it or deflecting first.
Some areas I resist recieving....job opportunities, because it doesn'y look exactly the way I'd "WANT" it. Being Vulnerable or chance looking bad. Talking to Famous people I'm working near, Connecting to home more, Money on some level becuase I havent created abundance for myself that looks bigger than what I have been used to yet....
MAKE A REQUEST OF SOMEONE, To recieve some form of supply.
"It's not about being granted it's about making the request"
Request to Help recording
Request for an overdue date....(he made request me first)
Request to be seen by CDs and Producers of films and TV I want to be a part of.
I am Love so I am Worthiness now. I relish my attention on being fulfilled.
You are love present to your wholeness now.
DAY 37 - Creation current
"Percepion is a learned phenomenon."
Introduce your self as your spirit name. HELLO I AM DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE! Hey just in case you didnt know, my name is really Divine Thriving Nicole.
RIVER GUIDE - If you can't call yourself Divine Thriving Nicole Than what are you committed to?
Might worry someone else will think I'm being a silly hippy and won't or can't be takin seriously.
Who I am being thinking, speaking, believing, acting, and attituding creates my experience of life. Whatever experience I am having I am creating. I now choose to love my life.
Knowing you create your experience of life you choose to love your life now.
Where am I not taking responsiblity today? Making assumptions in work and love. Could be more clear and attentive to details before the issues arise. I am choosing to be exactly where I am, and how I feel. I can choose to feel differently or change my circumstance.
I am divine creation. I honor creator by adoring myself.
DAY 38 - Worth Current
If you could be known for any quality of being, what would you be known for? Look in the mirror and acknowledge yourself for being that way.
I want to be known to be inspirational. I want to create and ispire others to create and grow and change for all of our highest good. So I want to be known for being inspirational!
I am a divine creation. I honor Creator by adoring myself.
DAY 39 - Love and Acceptance
What do you resist or not accept about your finances.
Well this one is easy, I dont accept my debt, lack of savings, or that I don't have steady income. That I need to create more abundance by raising my standards of work and asking for more.
What could ou say that would create the same situation in acceptance.
I am perfectly takin care of Right now!
River guide - What you resist will persist. Loving and accepting gets you out of your own way.
Creator is being my life and being all of life. I trust creator and bless creator in and as everything.
Before bed... did you extend Love to everyone you encountered? Imagine extending more!! Had a fun day of celebrating the music of Bill withers and his daughter Kori who is amazing. Spent time with my good friend who's moving soon who is also very talented singer and my man and friends celebrating the fact that I got a Job at CAFE GRATITUDE, and They had an AMAZING SHOW, got people dancing in there seats to the music, gave love to doggies and made love to my babe. All in all a pretty awesome day! ANd the morning has been lovely too.
more of this please!
xo-me
okay
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Abounding River - 32 - 34 - more catch up to come
DAY 32 - Worth
"I'm the adoring love of the creator' - SAY IT OUT LOUD, and what is your experience.
What I want wants me, Iam everything Creator is. I love and value myslef as creator's creation.
I am creator's masterpiece. I adore myself.
The before bed exercise helped the most today. Thank creator you for revealing to you what area in your life you can be more loving to yourself. My "love life". Taking my own power back, not allowing myself to feel like victim of circumstance, and if something is unconfortable for me I need to do something to change it and not wait for someone else to change it for me. As uncomfortable as that conversation was the fact that I was about to take something into my own hands, light the fire under an ass to clear something that has been long over due to move forward, and just that simple act of facing assumption relieved 90% of the ick I've been feeling lately. SPEAK UP, STAND UP, OWN YOUR POWER, YOUR WORTH IT!!!
DAY 33 - Love & Acceptance current
"to love for the sake of being loved is human, to love for the sake of loving is Angelic" - Alphonse de LaMartine
Listen to someone is your life that everything they say is "GOLD", grant them loving acceptance.
WOAH - had pretty insense convos with Dad and my guy! Clearing, holding space, standing up for myself, accepting them for their processes, testing my patience and emotions, and trying real hard to listen and BELIEVE their word as GOLDEN, and just saying whats absolutely nessessary for me. rough day, rough convos of breaking patterns and habits but the light at the end of the tunnel was I was able to feel weight lifted at the end of both conversations.
river guide - LOVE is everywhere and everyone!
another great before bed exercise - See every cell of your body working perfectly recieving what it requires....(i've been sick so thats interesting) and then put your attention on part of the whole that you dont accept as perfect, (person, condition, event). Next Thank LOVE for revealing to you the opportunity this part of the whole is. Be grateful for the Guidance and log any appropriate action to take.
I need to reach out to someone, and do a clearing for me. Someone I got caught in an awkward triangle in not from my own making, and I need to send this situation Love and trust!
DAY 34 - gratitude current
"We have infinite reasons to be happy, and a serious responsiblity to not be too serious" - Maharishi Mahesh Yogi
With whom can you be more grateful for Right now? Today take actions to express that gratitude.
my dad for teaching me guitar
my guy for clearing the cloud thats been holding us back.
I still could probably do something special for them, I have a rad gift idea for vday- which I'll be facing a fear on too.
to be contunued....
"I'm the adoring love of the creator' - SAY IT OUT LOUD, and what is your experience.
What I want wants me, Iam everything Creator is. I love and value myslef as creator's creation.
I am creator's masterpiece. I adore myself.
The before bed exercise helped the most today. Thank creator you for revealing to you what area in your life you can be more loving to yourself. My "love life". Taking my own power back, not allowing myself to feel like victim of circumstance, and if something is unconfortable for me I need to do something to change it and not wait for someone else to change it for me. As uncomfortable as that conversation was the fact that I was about to take something into my own hands, light the fire under an ass to clear something that has been long over due to move forward, and just that simple act of facing assumption relieved 90% of the ick I've been feeling lately. SPEAK UP, STAND UP, OWN YOUR POWER, YOUR WORTH IT!!!
DAY 33 - Love & Acceptance current
"to love for the sake of being loved is human, to love for the sake of loving is Angelic" - Alphonse de LaMartine
Listen to someone is your life that everything they say is "GOLD", grant them loving acceptance.
WOAH - had pretty insense convos with Dad and my guy! Clearing, holding space, standing up for myself, accepting them for their processes, testing my patience and emotions, and trying real hard to listen and BELIEVE their word as GOLDEN, and just saying whats absolutely nessessary for me. rough day, rough convos of breaking patterns and habits but the light at the end of the tunnel was I was able to feel weight lifted at the end of both conversations.
river guide - LOVE is everywhere and everyone!
another great before bed exercise - See every cell of your body working perfectly recieving what it requires....(i've been sick so thats interesting) and then put your attention on part of the whole that you dont accept as perfect, (person, condition, event). Next Thank LOVE for revealing to you the opportunity this part of the whole is. Be grateful for the Guidance and log any appropriate action to take.
I need to reach out to someone, and do a clearing for me. Someone I got caught in an awkward triangle in not from my own making, and I need to send this situation Love and trust!
DAY 34 - gratitude current
"We have infinite reasons to be happy, and a serious responsiblity to not be too serious" - Maharishi Mahesh Yogi
With whom can you be more grateful for Right now? Today take actions to express that gratitude.
my dad for teaching me guitar
my guy for clearing the cloud thats been holding us back.
I still could probably do something special for them, I have a rad gift idea for vday- which I'll be facing a fear on too.
to be contunued....
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Abounding River - Day 31 - hey I'm 31!
Day 31 - Creation current
"Let one therefore keep the mind pure, for what a man thinks, that he becomes" - The Upanishads
Practice thinking, speaking, believing, acting, and having an attitude of, "I live a blessed life" all day. Bless everything, every circumstance, and every person as an opportunity to be LOVE all day long. Start your day by saying, "I live a blessed life" 7 times in the mirror. I wish I got to this this morning but better late than never.
River guide - YOU GET TO SAY HOW YOUR LIFE IS. WHY NOT CREATE IT AS BLESSED?
"I adore LIGHT me as my life now. I honor LIGHT me by keeping my attention on the fullness of my life. I am blessed now."
Time for Light me to go home and make some food and pop in a movie with a heating pad on my heart! Loving away the virus that has been getting passed along.
Feel well everyone! Be healthy and Vital and sing out loud before you lose your voice!
You are blessed,
xo- me
"Let one therefore keep the mind pure, for what a man thinks, that he becomes" - The Upanishads
Practice thinking, speaking, believing, acting, and having an attitude of, "I live a blessed life" all day. Bless everything, every circumstance, and every person as an opportunity to be LOVE all day long. Start your day by saying, "I live a blessed life" 7 times in the mirror. I wish I got to this this morning but better late than never.
River guide - YOU GET TO SAY HOW YOUR LIFE IS. WHY NOT CREATE IT AS BLESSED?
"I adore LIGHT me as my life now. I honor LIGHT me by keeping my attention on the fullness of my life. I am blessed now."
Time for Light me to go home and make some food and pop in a movie with a heating pad on my heart! Loving away the virus that has been getting passed along.
Feel well everyone! Be healthy and Vital and sing out loud before you lose your voice!
You are blessed,
xo- me
Abounding River Days 26-30 - more catch up
DAY 26 - Worth Current
"above all things, Revere yourself!"
What would you like to be acknowledged for? Make a request of someone in your life to acknowledge or appreciate you for what you chose. Pick something that stretches your worth.
Not sure how much it stretched my worth, but it certainly streched my growth. I chose to asked my man, (who hasnt been completely my man up til this point for a few reason but one because he smokes weeds sometimes) I have a huge judegemnt and wound from weed due to past conditioning and I chose recently to move through the discomfort by being with him and actually seeing him a little high. It was unconfortable, but not the end of times! lol. I still have a hard time being turned on by blood shot eyes, but when I sat with it, I came to the realization that he still is the amazing guy that treats me well in so many ways and is talented and driven and it doesnt consume his life or hold him back, its a moment for him not all of him. I wanted to be acknowledged for moving though the discomfort, allowing myself to drop the judgement, releasing myself from the past, and having that realization. And he did and acknowledged even more of the things he admires and respects about me!
RIVER GUIDE - Why not appreciate yourself as Divine's PERFECT creation
DAY 27 - Love & Acceptance
Identify one relationship in your life where you are withholding love. How could you be more accepting so that LOVE would be present?
River guide - Look for someone whom you dont experience love like you once did. Why would you let anything get in the way of love?
This was tough to really connect with today because i was on set for 12 hours in awe of watching Adam Sandler, Johnney Depp, and AL PACINO work! Plus I spent most of the day walking back and forth and up and down the stairs. Yes, extra work, but when I get to see my idols I am sOOOO grateful for it! 3 dreams came true in a way only thing better is acting with them!
But back to question - DAD for sure dad, so much so I have been avoiding his calls, when I looked back on that it was interesting to see johnny and Al because if I wrote and shot a movie of my dad's crazy life, I'd want to cast those two actors to play him. It was a moment of appreciation, spirtiual connection and acknowledgement I had for him. I energetically sent him love, and happy to report 2 days later he called, I answered and we probably had one of the most CLEAR conversations we have ever shared. It was lovely. I would love to experience more of those please universe!
"I Love and accept myself and others as we are. I devote myself to LOVE me by choosing to adore all of life in every now moment."
DAY 28 - Gratitude Current
Perfectly divine that it's gratitude day and I had an interview with Cafe Gratitude for their LA opening!
Express gratitude for some historial figure or event that has contributed to our life.
Another syncronicity being the day prior just happened to be Martin Luther King Jr Day, and three of my friends happened to be up during wee hours of morning discussing society and social conditioning and this LOVE FILLED amzing man came up. We all agreed that he deserved more acknowledgemnt then he has been giving by goverment etc. He has a day, but we do not really observe it. It should be a day to contemplate on the shifts he made for so many people, steps in getting us closer to THE ONE & LOVE conscousiness. That should be a day off just like presidents day!
Today I am grateful for my man letting me stay with him in hollywood so Im closer to all my commitments and opportunities, grateful for My audition, my interview with cafe gratitude, buses that get me where I need to go, The loves that gave me work this week, internet, hot water, my immune system fighting, work to come, and johnny depp for being so pretty! haha
DAY 29 - Generosity
River Guide - Being generous may be giving of your time, your money, your knowledge etc. Stretch yourself in opening up to the flow.
acknowledge yourself for how you are generous and how others are generous to you.
my man this whole week with time and space, friend sharing feelings with, mom always, another friend helping me get work. myself for allowing myself to recieve!!!!
me to others about healing things I read, listening and holding space, getting actor friends auditions and jobs.
"I am a divine giver, I practice being LOVE me by being generous".
DAY 30 - Abundance Current
What would be available to you if yougave up trying to get somewhere? what would your experience be if you really could own that life turned out? SAY OUT LOUD " I have a great life! "
oooooh, this one, well I'm starting to realize TRYING never helps you HAVE anything.
I can GIVE UP TRYING to be an actress, I AM ONE! And I'm having alot of reflections of seeing those I admire or actors from one of my favorites in my prescense lately to remind me, what MY PURPOSE is. It also allows me to be open to knew paths and growths. And I have certainly shifted something with but struggle of casting/acting. I just had a casting asistant job thursday and the UPM assumed I was an actress and put me on camera! He saw all of me. I had a friend of a friend who is an amazing singer/songwriter ask me if I sing and write too randomly and he only knows me as a casting direcotor and actress. LOVE will be fully available to me the more I can accept my love for exactly who he is right now. Of course without compromising myself, That's the balance. But dropping the idea of what it was supposed to look like. Opportunity's for financial flow will be available to me, as a speak up for what I feel a deserve and also be open to opportunities that arent always nessessarily on my "goal" path. every path leads somewhere new and exciting right! I HAVE A GREAT LIFE!!!!!
I am fulfilled now. I am present to being Millions now!
weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
xo - me
"above all things, Revere yourself!"
What would you like to be acknowledged for? Make a request of someone in your life to acknowledge or appreciate you for what you chose. Pick something that stretches your worth.
Not sure how much it stretched my worth, but it certainly streched my growth. I chose to asked my man, (who hasnt been completely my man up til this point for a few reason but one because he smokes weeds sometimes) I have a huge judegemnt and wound from weed due to past conditioning and I chose recently to move through the discomfort by being with him and actually seeing him a little high. It was unconfortable, but not the end of times! lol. I still have a hard time being turned on by blood shot eyes, but when I sat with it, I came to the realization that he still is the amazing guy that treats me well in so many ways and is talented and driven and it doesnt consume his life or hold him back, its a moment for him not all of him. I wanted to be acknowledged for moving though the discomfort, allowing myself to drop the judgement, releasing myself from the past, and having that realization. And he did and acknowledged even more of the things he admires and respects about me!
RIVER GUIDE - Why not appreciate yourself as Divine's PERFECT creation
DAY 27 - Love & Acceptance
Identify one relationship in your life where you are withholding love. How could you be more accepting so that LOVE would be present?
River guide - Look for someone whom you dont experience love like you once did. Why would you let anything get in the way of love?
This was tough to really connect with today because i was on set for 12 hours in awe of watching Adam Sandler, Johnney Depp, and AL PACINO work! Plus I spent most of the day walking back and forth and up and down the stairs. Yes, extra work, but when I get to see my idols I am sOOOO grateful for it! 3 dreams came true in a way only thing better is acting with them!
But back to question - DAD for sure dad, so much so I have been avoiding his calls, when I looked back on that it was interesting to see johnny and Al because if I wrote and shot a movie of my dad's crazy life, I'd want to cast those two actors to play him. It was a moment of appreciation, spirtiual connection and acknowledgement I had for him. I energetically sent him love, and happy to report 2 days later he called, I answered and we probably had one of the most CLEAR conversations we have ever shared. It was lovely. I would love to experience more of those please universe!
"I Love and accept myself and others as we are. I devote myself to LOVE me by choosing to adore all of life in every now moment."
DAY 28 - Gratitude Current
Perfectly divine that it's gratitude day and I had an interview with Cafe Gratitude for their LA opening!
Express gratitude for some historial figure or event that has contributed to our life.
Another syncronicity being the day prior just happened to be Martin Luther King Jr Day, and three of my friends happened to be up during wee hours of morning discussing society and social conditioning and this LOVE FILLED amzing man came up. We all agreed that he deserved more acknowledgemnt then he has been giving by goverment etc. He has a day, but we do not really observe it. It should be a day to contemplate on the shifts he made for so many people, steps in getting us closer to THE ONE & LOVE conscousiness. That should be a day off just like presidents day!
Today I am grateful for my man letting me stay with him in hollywood so Im closer to all my commitments and opportunities, grateful for My audition, my interview with cafe gratitude, buses that get me where I need to go, The loves that gave me work this week, internet, hot water, my immune system fighting, work to come, and johnny depp for being so pretty! haha
DAY 29 - Generosity
River Guide - Being generous may be giving of your time, your money, your knowledge etc. Stretch yourself in opening up to the flow.
acknowledge yourself for how you are generous and how others are generous to you.
my man this whole week with time and space, friend sharing feelings with, mom always, another friend helping me get work. myself for allowing myself to recieve!!!!
me to others about healing things I read, listening and holding space, getting actor friends auditions and jobs.
"I am a divine giver, I practice being LOVE me by being generous".
DAY 30 - Abundance Current
What would be available to you if yougave up trying to get somewhere? what would your experience be if you really could own that life turned out? SAY OUT LOUD " I have a great life! "
oooooh, this one, well I'm starting to realize TRYING never helps you HAVE anything.
I can GIVE UP TRYING to be an actress, I AM ONE! And I'm having alot of reflections of seeing those I admire or actors from one of my favorites in my prescense lately to remind me, what MY PURPOSE is. It also allows me to be open to knew paths and growths. And I have certainly shifted something with but struggle of casting/acting. I just had a casting asistant job thursday and the UPM assumed I was an actress and put me on camera! He saw all of me. I had a friend of a friend who is an amazing singer/songwriter ask me if I sing and write too randomly and he only knows me as a casting direcotor and actress. LOVE will be fully available to me the more I can accept my love for exactly who he is right now. Of course without compromising myself, That's the balance. But dropping the idea of what it was supposed to look like. Opportunity's for financial flow will be available to me, as a speak up for what I feel a deserve and also be open to opportunities that arent always nessessarily on my "goal" path. every path leads somewhere new and exciting right! I HAVE A GREAT LIFE!!!!!
I am fulfilled now. I am present to being Millions now!
weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
xo - me
Monday, January 17, 2011
Abounding River 20 through 25 - I have been a little lax
Lordy Bee,
I got a bit behind a few days but it looks worse that it is, I have been journaling just not blogging. I dont have internet at home currently so i have to wait until a get to a coffee shop and as Abundant as I am feeling and working I still have to be smart about spending more than I should to get internet. But I'm being careful of the language I'm using to. It's so hard to not fall into the trap of Can't afford etc!
At any rate let's catch up shall we? -
DAY 20 - Worth Current
"Your problem is you are too busy holding on to your unworthiness"
List 3 ways of being that dimish your experience of being worthy -
1. I should be working on my monologues (beating myself up for procrastinating)
2. I can't afford cable and internet right now (yet I spend money alot of days at a coffeshop to get it)
3. I'm unsure if my heart is safe with this person (he is proving he has changed and is going above and beyond to show me my worth if I just accept it allow it and be in my gratitude for all that he is doing and saying)
River Guide -Why not love yourself as you love others?
Grateful for KRISTAN for giving me a free couch, Uhaul for rented me the truck, Joel, Pete, Trey, and Jesse for helping me carry it down and up many flights of stairs, Coyote for paying me so I could afoord the uhaul. And the universes humor discovering when I got it stuck in my doorway it came apart and I could have saved time, energy and money of everyone involved. But it being a worthy day, I think it all played the part for me to know I have lovely men in my life I can depend on!
"love is having a Nicole experience"
DAY 21 - Love & Acceptance Current
What do you notice, when you are really loving with yourself and others?
Things seem to work out for the best, I feel good, I look good, I take care of myself, I attract more good, others feel good around me, I want to do good for others, I am vibrating at a higher energy frequency!
Today was the screening of Leading Ladies at the Palm Springs international Film Festival - We got so much love for the film, and appreciation from the audience it was a reminder of why I want to be an actress and involved in creating magical love inspiring stories!
I now choose to love and accept myself and others as spirit. I celebrate spirit in you and in everyone all day long.
DAY 22 - Gratitude Current
"He is well paid that he is well satisfied"
List 3 forms of supply that you take for granted
1. Electricity
2. Hotwater
3. Mother's love
My friend recented had a power outage on her block for a few days and it was a reminder of how different and not as simple live is if we didnt have electricity & hotwater. We'd all be without internet, light (except candle), blowdryers, curling irons, I probably wouldnt shave my legs cause I could stand standing in cold water for to long or I'd option to be a dirty smelly hippy. And mom's are the ultimate expression of unconditional love, well them and dogs! hehe They are always there, no matter how many times you "screw up" or don't call back, or need a shoulder to cry on. I know there are some exceptions but I am blessed with one of those awesome mom's and I don't acknowledge her enough!
"I am grateful for all the expressions of creator filled me"
DAY 23 - generosity current
What is your experience when you give freely?
Give something away you are attached to.
I went to the redbox to rent two movies for $2.20 a man I have seen there before sitting with his bike was accepting change or food. I have been struggling with my old self a bit holding tighter to my money since I don't current have income coming in, yet here I am spending 2 dollars on movies, so I gave him a dollar. I didnt think twice about really and it felt good and he actually looked surprised and was very grateful.
River guide - where does it all go anyway?
it's just investing into the oneness of us all isnt it?!
"I am honored to share my abundance with everyone now"
DAY 24 - Abundance current
"there is a treasure of Joy within you, why do you keep knocking from door to door"
What is something you say you want, that you can let go of wanting? write it down, tear it up and throw it away
I release wanting a car now!
I release wanting a job now!
I release wanting a smaller nose now!
and many more things I feel I dont have right now but should...those thoughts keep it "out there" away from my grasp.
"I am enjoying letting go of wants that I no longer need. I am completely fulfilled by the quality of abundance love me is being as me and as my life now!"
DAY 25 - Creation Current
Identify a thought of limitation that is re-ocurring
"I can't afford..."
shift it to
I am now able to afford...
River guide - You can practice thinking anything!
I am practicing trust, even though I don't currently see income flowing in, and still allowing myself to take care of my wants and needs by giving supply in order to recieve.
ie, starbucks, time witha friend, lunch at happy hour, bus fare etc
Grateful for and acknowledging the time, love, dinners, compliments, and sexy time with a special man in my life right now!
"I am one with all that is, everything I see and don't see. Everything I could ever desire, I already am. I am whole and complete now.
WHAT I WANT WANTS ME!!!!!
fieeeewww! okay big breath and on to Day 26
xo- me
I got a bit behind a few days but it looks worse that it is, I have been journaling just not blogging. I dont have internet at home currently so i have to wait until a get to a coffee shop and as Abundant as I am feeling and working I still have to be smart about spending more than I should to get internet. But I'm being careful of the language I'm using to. It's so hard to not fall into the trap of Can't afford etc!
At any rate let's catch up shall we? -
DAY 20 - Worth Current
"Your problem is you are too busy holding on to your unworthiness"
List 3 ways of being that dimish your experience of being worthy -
1. I should be working on my monologues (beating myself up for procrastinating)
2. I can't afford cable and internet right now (yet I spend money alot of days at a coffeshop to get it)
3. I'm unsure if my heart is safe with this person (he is proving he has changed and is going above and beyond to show me my worth if I just accept it allow it and be in my gratitude for all that he is doing and saying)
River Guide -Why not love yourself as you love others?
Grateful for KRISTAN for giving me a free couch, Uhaul for rented me the truck, Joel, Pete, Trey, and Jesse for helping me carry it down and up many flights of stairs, Coyote for paying me so I could afoord the uhaul. And the universes humor discovering when I got it stuck in my doorway it came apart and I could have saved time, energy and money of everyone involved. But it being a worthy day, I think it all played the part for me to know I have lovely men in my life I can depend on!
"love is having a Nicole experience"
DAY 21 - Love & Acceptance Current
What do you notice, when you are really loving with yourself and others?
Things seem to work out for the best, I feel good, I look good, I take care of myself, I attract more good, others feel good around me, I want to do good for others, I am vibrating at a higher energy frequency!
Today was the screening of Leading Ladies at the Palm Springs international Film Festival - We got so much love for the film, and appreciation from the audience it was a reminder of why I want to be an actress and involved in creating magical love inspiring stories!
I now choose to love and accept myself and others as spirit. I celebrate spirit in you and in everyone all day long.
DAY 22 - Gratitude Current
"He is well paid that he is well satisfied"
List 3 forms of supply that you take for granted
1. Electricity
2. Hotwater
3. Mother's love
My friend recented had a power outage on her block for a few days and it was a reminder of how different and not as simple live is if we didnt have electricity & hotwater. We'd all be without internet, light (except candle), blowdryers, curling irons, I probably wouldnt shave my legs cause I could stand standing in cold water for to long or I'd option to be a dirty smelly hippy. And mom's are the ultimate expression of unconditional love, well them and dogs! hehe They are always there, no matter how many times you "screw up" or don't call back, or need a shoulder to cry on. I know there are some exceptions but I am blessed with one of those awesome mom's and I don't acknowledge her enough!
"I am grateful for all the expressions of creator filled me"
DAY 23 - generosity current
What is your experience when you give freely?
Give something away you are attached to.
I went to the redbox to rent two movies for $2.20 a man I have seen there before sitting with his bike was accepting change or food. I have been struggling with my old self a bit holding tighter to my money since I don't current have income coming in, yet here I am spending 2 dollars on movies, so I gave him a dollar. I didnt think twice about really and it felt good and he actually looked surprised and was very grateful.
River guide - where does it all go anyway?
it's just investing into the oneness of us all isnt it?!
"I am honored to share my abundance with everyone now"
DAY 24 - Abundance current
"there is a treasure of Joy within you, why do you keep knocking from door to door"
What is something you say you want, that you can let go of wanting? write it down, tear it up and throw it away
I release wanting a car now!
I release wanting a job now!
I release wanting a smaller nose now!
and many more things I feel I dont have right now but should...those thoughts keep it "out there" away from my grasp.
"I am enjoying letting go of wants that I no longer need. I am completely fulfilled by the quality of abundance love me is being as me and as my life now!"
DAY 25 - Creation Current
Identify a thought of limitation that is re-ocurring
"I can't afford..."
shift it to
I am now able to afford...
River guide - You can practice thinking anything!
I am practicing trust, even though I don't currently see income flowing in, and still allowing myself to take care of my wants and needs by giving supply in order to recieve.
ie, starbucks, time witha friend, lunch at happy hour, bus fare etc
Grateful for and acknowledging the time, love, dinners, compliments, and sexy time with a special man in my life right now!
"I am one with all that is, everything I see and don't see. Everything I could ever desire, I already am. I am whole and complete now.
WHAT I WANT WANTS ME!!!!!
fieeeewww! okay big breath and on to Day 26
xo- me
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Abounding River Day 18 & 19 - sooooo behind, and feeling it
Day 18
Abundance Current
"we walk by Faith not by sight"
WHat is something I think or say that Limits my experience of Abundance?
I'm broke
I can't afford to
I need work
I can't......(anything)
River guide - Our inhibitions (seem real) in what we think, say, believe, act, and attitude
Different things I THINK about me.....
I'm awesome in alot of ways, I'm indecisive, I'm expressive, I'm honest, I dont always look cute, I wont ever be rich
Act - loving, critical, fun, tired
Believe - I deserve better, I'm a teacher, I have had a harder road than most
Say - exhausted, broke, loving, a catch, confused, fickle, talented, can't sing
Attitude - depends on the day, most of the time happy, lately not entirely, which sucks...what is this funk?
YOU KNOW YOU ARE CREATOR AND CREATOR YOU IS THE ONLY CONSTANT SOURCE OF ABUNDANCE!
Day 19
Creation current
Say, I trust divine me as my unlimited source and supply. write down what your experience is when you say that....no wonder I have to come back to this one. I didnt commit to finishing this day and then lagged behind, so that tells me something.
River guide - If you arent trusting DIVINE who or what are you trusting?
yikes....another one. I am being faced with lots of trust issues right now. especially since the next few days were spent with someone I am trying to build trust with again.
1/11/2011 - had been screwy with me from the jump! But I GOT A FREE COUCH!
When I say free I mean $100 later, in truck, gas, food money to helpful men. But never the less, grateful to finally have it, and a complete looking living room!
With all the snags that happened with moving a couch down 7 flights of stairs only to find it came apart later! TRUST! Trusting this man who wants to be in my life that went above and beyond to show his love for me the past few days, trusting running into people that I thought I'd not see for a ll time because of this man, and what that brought up for me, trusting the love of a brother and friend to help with no expectation, to trust it fitting into my doorway apartment, to trust I had the money to spend. It's all good! Trusting my hearts is exactly where it's supposed to be if I'm truely following it!
I choose Divine thoughts, speech, beliefs, actions, attitudes all day long. I love choosing to live as Divine Abundant me!
now to catch up with day 20, 21, 22!
xo-me
Abundance Current
"we walk by Faith not by sight"
WHat is something I think or say that Limits my experience of Abundance?
I'm broke
I can't afford to
I need work
I can't......(anything)
River guide - Our inhibitions (seem real) in what we think, say, believe, act, and attitude
Different things I THINK about me.....
I'm awesome in alot of ways, I'm indecisive, I'm expressive, I'm honest, I dont always look cute, I wont ever be rich
Act - loving, critical, fun, tired
Believe - I deserve better, I'm a teacher, I have had a harder road than most
Say - exhausted, broke, loving, a catch, confused, fickle, talented, can't sing
Attitude - depends on the day, most of the time happy, lately not entirely, which sucks...what is this funk?
YOU KNOW YOU ARE CREATOR AND CREATOR YOU IS THE ONLY CONSTANT SOURCE OF ABUNDANCE!
Day 19
Creation current
Say, I trust divine me as my unlimited source and supply. write down what your experience is when you say that....no wonder I have to come back to this one. I didnt commit to finishing this day and then lagged behind, so that tells me something.
River guide - If you arent trusting DIVINE who or what are you trusting?
yikes....another one. I am being faced with lots of trust issues right now. especially since the next few days were spent with someone I am trying to build trust with again.
1/11/2011 - had been screwy with me from the jump! But I GOT A FREE COUCH!
When I say free I mean $100 later, in truck, gas, food money to helpful men. But never the less, grateful to finally have it, and a complete looking living room!
With all the snags that happened with moving a couch down 7 flights of stairs only to find it came apart later! TRUST! Trusting this man who wants to be in my life that went above and beyond to show his love for me the past few days, trusting running into people that I thought I'd not see for a ll time because of this man, and what that brought up for me, trusting the love of a brother and friend to help with no expectation, to trust it fitting into my doorway apartment, to trust I had the money to spend. It's all good! Trusting my hearts is exactly where it's supposed to be if I'm truely following it!
I choose Divine thoughts, speech, beliefs, actions, attitudes all day long. I love choosing to live as Divine Abundant me!
now to catch up with day 20, 21, 22!
xo-me
Sunday, January 9, 2011
abounding river day 17
Day 17
Generosity current
Where do you hold back? Or resist giving and sharing completely?
I'm holding back my heart and trust from someone who wants it back
I'm holding back my self worth and talents to the acting world
I'm holding back my words and. Expression songwriting
Being generous
Money to local coffeeshop, post office, let go of exs tape to a mutual friend, giving heart and time to a test date, gave love and luck to movie I just finished casting.
I know giving and receiving are one in the same. I now give freely opening myself up to experiencing unlimited supply.
Ask yourself, what is something you are attached to or resist to give away? Why do you resist? Can you see something might be available if you give it away?
Last night, I literally felt my heart leave my chest - with it some kind of sadness and pain, like a bird flying from its cage. it was surreal.
Xo me
Generosity current
Where do you hold back? Or resist giving and sharing completely?
I'm holding back my heart and trust from someone who wants it back
I'm holding back my self worth and talents to the acting world
I'm holding back my words and. Expression songwriting
Being generous
Money to local coffeeshop, post office, let go of exs tape to a mutual friend, giving heart and time to a test date, gave love and luck to movie I just finished casting.
I know giving and receiving are one in the same. I now give freely opening myself up to experiencing unlimited supply.
Ask yourself, what is something you are attached to or resist to give away? Why do you resist? Can you see something might be available if you give it away?
Last night, I literally felt my heart leave my chest - with it some kind of sadness and pain, like a bird flying from its cage. it was surreal.
Xo me
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Abounding River 15 & 16
Day 15
Love & Acceptance Current
If you judge people you have no time to Love them!
Who in you life or world do you havean opinion about?
I have one about my current boss/friend because he has one of me that's wrong, and I feel like he's being stubborn closed minded and assuming without trying to see my truth that I laid out clear as day in a letter
RIVER GUIDE -
Can you see that opinions come from expectations and expectations reduce the joy in life?
YES! My expectation was he would read my letter and understand me more but instead he put up more resistance which created more tension for us both. But if I let go of expectation and allow myself to feel good I expressed myself and it's not my problem how it lands with him, I can let it go and move forward I can also be grateful for what he is showing me, and the types of situations I am better equiped to handle or avoid in the future. No matter what happens to our relationship at this point. I know what I need to move forward, and it's up to him to step up to the plate with me at this point if he can't, I can still send him love & acceptance and respect from afar trusting his process and loving myself in mine.
Affirmation:
I am adoring of myself, I am adoring of everyone else. I am adoring the love of spirit radiating for myself and all.
I am being Love as Divine expression, action, and enjoying love in my present moment.
DAY 16
Gratitude Current
Give Thanks!
What are some things you desire and can you feel good for others that aquire those things?
I desire, acting roles, love, sex, commitment, money, luxury, comfort, acknowledgement, a car, hugs, food, laughs
What did I give away today? Time and listening
What am I grateful for? Divine Thriving Me, Internet, A friend, Cafe Buna, Cows, chickens, eggs, farmers, plants, trucks/driver/gas, electricity, hot water, water filters etcetcetc....
Stretch gratitude
Spirit me is being grateful for all of life. I am grateful for the IRS now.
The mirror exercises are tough....and if I'm totally honest I havent been commited to doing them....errrrr
xo-me
Love & Acceptance Current
If you judge people you have no time to Love them!
Who in you life or world do you havean opinion about?
I have one about my current boss/friend because he has one of me that's wrong, and I feel like he's being stubborn closed minded and assuming without trying to see my truth that I laid out clear as day in a letter
RIVER GUIDE -
Can you see that opinions come from expectations and expectations reduce the joy in life?
YES! My expectation was he would read my letter and understand me more but instead he put up more resistance which created more tension for us both. But if I let go of expectation and allow myself to feel good I expressed myself and it's not my problem how it lands with him, I can let it go and move forward I can also be grateful for what he is showing me, and the types of situations I am better equiped to handle or avoid in the future. No matter what happens to our relationship at this point. I know what I need to move forward, and it's up to him to step up to the plate with me at this point if he can't, I can still send him love & acceptance and respect from afar trusting his process and loving myself in mine.
Affirmation:
I am adoring of myself, I am adoring of everyone else. I am adoring the love of spirit radiating for myself and all.
I am being Love as Divine expression, action, and enjoying love in my present moment.
DAY 16
Gratitude Current
Give Thanks!
What are some things you desire and can you feel good for others that aquire those things?
I desire, acting roles, love, sex, commitment, money, luxury, comfort, acknowledgement, a car, hugs, food, laughs
What did I give away today? Time and listening
What am I grateful for? Divine Thriving Me, Internet, A friend, Cafe Buna, Cows, chickens, eggs, farmers, plants, trucks/driver/gas, electricity, hot water, water filters etcetcetc....
Stretch gratitude
Spirit me is being grateful for all of life. I am grateful for the IRS now.
The mirror exercises are tough....and if I'm totally honest I havent been commited to doing them....errrrr
xo-me
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Abounding River - DAY 14
WORTH CURRENT
"you are gods"
What would you like to be forgiven for?
Geez....the heavy stuff I'm pretty good about doing the work to either forgive myself or apologise where I need to. But I do have something that came up that might not seem like something I'd want or need forgiveness for but it itches at my brain.....DEBT
I would like to be forgiven for all my Debts. Money owed to credit cards, loans, or people. If I think about it and not being able to pay it back or brush it under the rug it makes me sick with lack.
RIVER GUIDE - To Forgive means to give as before. Why are you judging yourself?
I judge myself with this because I should have learned from my parents mistakes.
Because I shouldnt have been so careless in my youth
I'm not making it a priority
I feel like on some level I'm not honoring my word
I forgive myself of my accumulating debt
I forgive myself
I forgive myself
What would you like to be forgiven for? Take ownership and take back your power!
I am infinite worth, I know I am infinite worth because I am perfect Divine now and Always.
You are the worthiness of Divine now and always
On a side note, this morning was a sad one when I discovered a dear friend had passed a few years ago on this date. I will forever love him and miss him along with my best high school friend and older brother who also passed on TOO early. Today I would especially like to acknowledge and give my love & gratitude to the love and light and laughter they brought to my life!
xo-me
"you are gods"
What would you like to be forgiven for?
Geez....the heavy stuff I'm pretty good about doing the work to either forgive myself or apologise where I need to. But I do have something that came up that might not seem like something I'd want or need forgiveness for but it itches at my brain.....DEBT
I would like to be forgiven for all my Debts. Money owed to credit cards, loans, or people. If I think about it and not being able to pay it back or brush it under the rug it makes me sick with lack.
RIVER GUIDE - To Forgive means to give as before. Why are you judging yourself?
I judge myself with this because I should have learned from my parents mistakes.
Because I shouldnt have been so careless in my youth
I'm not making it a priority
I feel like on some level I'm not honoring my word
I forgive myself of my accumulating debt
I forgive myself
I forgive myself
What would you like to be forgiven for? Take ownership and take back your power!
I am infinite worth, I know I am infinite worth because I am perfect Divine now and Always.
You are the worthiness of Divine now and always
On a side note, this morning was a sad one when I discovered a dear friend had passed a few years ago on this date. I will forever love him and miss him along with my best high school friend and older brother who also passed on TOO early. Today I would especially like to acknowledge and give my love & gratitude to the love and light and laughter they brought to my life!
xo-me
Abounding River - DAY 13
DAY 13 - yesterday
Creation Current
"The Mind is everything, what we think we become"
It's such a simple and hard concept at the same time. sit and monitor your thoughts for a moment. chances are its hard to keep up first of all, and how much focus is on stress or lack thoughts, like I dont have enough time to get my things done or I can't afford to buy something or I look like shit. We choose these thoughts. And on top of that it becomes a habit so we dont even know we are choosing them. New year's resolutions are a time of ridding bad habits...maybe add this one to your list. AT least the awareness will get you started.
Exercise: What are thoughts you have that limit you? And how can you turn it into a positive thought of affirmation.
One of mine for sure is...I don't get paid enough or attract enough work that fulfills my passions and talents.
My new thought: My Abundance of Talent is NOW rewarded with an Abundance of Prosperity!
I also changed my spirit name....did I tell you already? It's now DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE.
You Divine Thriving Nicole are spirit expressingas UNLIMITED supply.
not physically feeling all that well, so today I am grateful for my body knowing exactly what to do to heal and function making me more vital and energized everyday! Thank you BODY!!! I LOVE YOU BODY!!!
xo-me
Creation Current
"The Mind is everything, what we think we become"
It's such a simple and hard concept at the same time. sit and monitor your thoughts for a moment. chances are its hard to keep up first of all, and how much focus is on stress or lack thoughts, like I dont have enough time to get my things done or I can't afford to buy something or I look like shit. We choose these thoughts. And on top of that it becomes a habit so we dont even know we are choosing them. New year's resolutions are a time of ridding bad habits...maybe add this one to your list. AT least the awareness will get you started.
Exercise: What are thoughts you have that limit you? And how can you turn it into a positive thought of affirmation.
One of mine for sure is...I don't get paid enough or attract enough work that fulfills my passions and talents.
My new thought: My Abundance of Talent is NOW rewarded with an Abundance of Prosperity!
I also changed my spirit name....did I tell you already? It's now DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE.
You Divine Thriving Nicole are spirit expressingas UNLIMITED supply.
not physically feeling all that well, so today I am grateful for my body knowing exactly what to do to heal and function making me more vital and energized everyday! Thank you BODY!!! I LOVE YOU BODY!!!
xo-me
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Abounding River Day 11 & 12
DAY 11
Generosity Current
AM I a joyous giver? Do I share money generously with others, knowing giving and recieving are the same.
I'm more free with money at times then with my energy. I am very generous with my time & energy helping others but what I have discovered about myself is if I don't say no when I need to, I will get withholding or resentful. Especially if I don't feel acknowledged or appreciated.
This is a pattern I can co-create in work and romantic relationships. And I need to discover ways of not allowing that in the furture, like owning my full self, so others can see all of me, or owning myself worth so I am not compromising on time and map, and just simply not self sacrificing when I think I'm being of service.
I'm deciding to change my spirit name to DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE. I say I love you and thank you everyone and everything.
I am deeply grateful for everything I receive and I enjoy giving to others, with attitude of Love & Service.
You are thankful for the opportunity to share with others as Love Wholeness You.
DAY 12
Abundance Current
The river guide - being masterful is mastering being.
I am abundance contantly expressing into shape, form and experience by my thoughts, speech, beliefs, actions and attitudes. My conscious awareness of this truth is unlimited so my experience of abundance is unlimited.
Before bed exercise...LOVE THIS
Sit on the edge of your bed and close your eyes. Take a few deep breaths and imagine a pot of gold coins in front of you. Scoop some out and each time you do see it refill imediately. Experience being that supplied!!!
Xo - me
Generosity Current
AM I a joyous giver? Do I share money generously with others, knowing giving and recieving are the same.
I'm more free with money at times then with my energy. I am very generous with my time & energy helping others but what I have discovered about myself is if I don't say no when I need to, I will get withholding or resentful. Especially if I don't feel acknowledged or appreciated.
This is a pattern I can co-create in work and romantic relationships. And I need to discover ways of not allowing that in the furture, like owning my full self, so others can see all of me, or owning myself worth so I am not compromising on time and map, and just simply not self sacrificing when I think I'm being of service.
I'm deciding to change my spirit name to DIVINE THRIVING NICOLE. I say I love you and thank you everyone and everything.
I am deeply grateful for everything I receive and I enjoy giving to others, with attitude of Love & Service.
You are thankful for the opportunity to share with others as Love Wholeness You.
DAY 12
Abundance Current
The river guide - being masterful is mastering being.
I am abundance contantly expressing into shape, form and experience by my thoughts, speech, beliefs, actions and attitudes. My conscious awareness of this truth is unlimited so my experience of abundance is unlimited.
Before bed exercise...LOVE THIS
Sit on the edge of your bed and close your eyes. Take a few deep breaths and imagine a pot of gold coins in front of you. Scoop some out and each time you do see it refill imediately. Experience being that supplied!!!
Xo - me
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Abounding River - DAY NINE & TEN Catch up!
Oh, joy I'm on a computer with internet....makes catch up sooooooo much easier. HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!!! 2011, good things are happening I feel it. We are all shifting to our higher selves. Lots of lessons and turmoil and wounds being discovered in 2010, change and transformation from earth's weather patterns to break ups & engagements.
At any rate with the hustle and bustle of My last minute clearing & New Year's plans to celebrate I fell a little behind on blogging but I continued the work, glas to say. But I'd like to make a commitment to get to the workbook and exercises earlier in the day to really live with it instead of sleep with it.
With out further ado....
DAY NINE: Love & acceptance current
Acknowledge 2 events in Life that you don't trust as God's Perfect creation.
This was tough to sit with...because it's dredging up alot of past things that I have worked through and forgiven and see the light in now. So to find something in my present with that knowledge was tricky I really had to dig, which is great, that's why I'm doing this. To really be honest with myself! So I came to....
1. My Money Issues - which looks like scrapping by financially, making just enough to survive while ignoring some debts and loans. which feels really icky to admit at 31 when I know other people "look like" they have their shit together with Owning houses and having kids to support. That's my JUDGE.
2. My Worth & Purpose - I really should own myself more. Not be afraid to make requests, not feel like I don't have a right to ask for more money because of the hard work I do put in, to nuture all my creative and supportive talents, to fully be seen for my greatness, why hide those things, again my Judge - what if others can't handle my truth, what if I don't get the job, what if someone else Judges me....um, WHO CARES?! My Purpose is to be FULLY EXPRESSED AND IN LOVE WITH MYSELF FIRST! That's all we are here for. TO CREATE our life, To Be our Highest Version of ourselves, to learn and teach along the way, and to LOVE!!!!! It's starts inside, and then live with that love in every interaction, and when you meet, to quote my roomies mom "Beloved Special Someone" You choose them! You don't need them!
I trust my life and all of life as creators perfect expression now!
DAY TEN: Gratitude Guide
What's really cool about this day is I literally didn't get to it until bed time and realized I happened to naturally have a pull to did the exercise it was going to give me anyway.
This day happened to be NEW YEAR DAYS - I also happened to be a little hung over from the evening festivities, which also happened to be a bit syncronistic. I was invited by a new cute friend who works at EAST WEST Lounge in Weho, to drink for free and have fun with lovely gay men, which felt perfect for me and my single girlfriends not wanted any boy distractions coming into this year! The lounge was where Leading Ladies my film that's hitting festivals, had it's opening DIVA party this summer for OUTFEST. That's was a cool reminder about my ACTOR SELF coming out of finishing casting for a FEATURE that some actors thought I was Playing the LEAD ROLE, but that situation happened to show me I couldn't be fully seen with this particular person. - wow quite a tangent!
So back to my morning I wrote a gratitude list......I would learn later at 5am when my day ended, I would be asked to make a gratitude list haha PERFECT. So here it is.....
Gratitude up to 2011 @ 31 years old.
I am grateful for living in California, for having been in love, for experiencing breaks, acting, dancing, writing, casting, directing, learning guitar, healing and healing others, paying bills, making debt, clearing debt, learning new things in school and out, making friends, loosing friends, facing deaths, finding transformation, traveling north and south and east and west of this country, building a solid foundation, clearing out old patterns, experiencing new ways, Being in the moment, struggling with ego, having good sex, bad sex,and GREAT SEX, being treated bad and good, finding and owning my worth, developing my business side, seeing myself more clearing and others ass the truly are, out with the old in with the new, making everyday and day of gratitude, trust source to find the "right" way, not needing to force or pursued outcomes, knowing today is my day and it's all we ever really have, I am fulfilled in each moment for as long as they last, I love you, I love me, I love the ocean and the trees, I am thankful for breath and earth and each day I have to share myself and the experience with others, Thank you for the lessons 2010. We did alot of growing and changing together. Thank you for bringing me to a particular house randomly that became my beakin and symbol of hope and love consciousness and the potential of creative power which also brought me to gratitude attitude! And specifically Stacie for bringing me to westside and letting me use her car and feeding me healthier foods, Savi for showing my strength and worth, Athena for the perfect mirror of myself and the mutual support and understanding we share, Robin for helping and supporting my business and personal sanity and giving me the AMAZING reading with Dr. Carbone. And everyone else my family and friends and co-workers who have supported my with finacial payment for a job or service or with love, encouragement and understanding. To my parents for the creative gifts they handed down to me, the love & sacrifices they gave, the blood, cells and breath they created for me! I literally thank them for my LIFE! And mr. eckles, the thr roundabout cycles we danced to get me a step closer to my divine partner.
I go on the acknowledge myself for everything I am and I won't bore you with all of that, but would like to encourage you to do the same. It's a way I'm fully being present to owning myself, all my parts that make the whole, and not all are comfortable yet. ei, I am Beautiful, I am Adundant, I am Nicole Heather Dionne, I am Powerful, I am a Lover, I am a bitch in the best possible way, I am an artist, I am a sister....etc etc etc So I thank me for being all those things!
Why not put your attention on all that you are grateful for? If you want a blessed life be that you are blessed!
And a reminder that this work came to me from cafe Gratitude - their ABOUNDING RIVER WORKBOOK - Get one! And start your new year with a new YOU!
www.cafegratitude.com
BE LOVE
xo - me
At any rate with the hustle and bustle of My last minute clearing & New Year's plans to celebrate I fell a little behind on blogging but I continued the work, glas to say. But I'd like to make a commitment to get to the workbook and exercises earlier in the day to really live with it instead of sleep with it.
With out further ado....
DAY NINE: Love & acceptance current
Acknowledge 2 events in Life that you don't trust as God's Perfect creation.
This was tough to sit with...because it's dredging up alot of past things that I have worked through and forgiven and see the light in now. So to find something in my present with that knowledge was tricky I really had to dig, which is great, that's why I'm doing this. To really be honest with myself! So I came to....
1. My Money Issues - which looks like scrapping by financially, making just enough to survive while ignoring some debts and loans. which feels really icky to admit at 31 when I know other people "look like" they have their shit together with Owning houses and having kids to support. That's my JUDGE.
2. My Worth & Purpose - I really should own myself more. Not be afraid to make requests, not feel like I don't have a right to ask for more money because of the hard work I do put in, to nuture all my creative and supportive talents, to fully be seen for my greatness, why hide those things, again my Judge - what if others can't handle my truth, what if I don't get the job, what if someone else Judges me....um, WHO CARES?! My Purpose is to be FULLY EXPRESSED AND IN LOVE WITH MYSELF FIRST! That's all we are here for. TO CREATE our life, To Be our Highest Version of ourselves, to learn and teach along the way, and to LOVE!!!!! It's starts inside, and then live with that love in every interaction, and when you meet, to quote my roomies mom "Beloved Special Someone" You choose them! You don't need them!
I trust my life and all of life as creators perfect expression now!
DAY TEN: Gratitude Guide
What's really cool about this day is I literally didn't get to it until bed time and realized I happened to naturally have a pull to did the exercise it was going to give me anyway.
This day happened to be NEW YEAR DAYS - I also happened to be a little hung over from the evening festivities, which also happened to be a bit syncronistic. I was invited by a new cute friend who works at EAST WEST Lounge in Weho, to drink for free and have fun with lovely gay men, which felt perfect for me and my single girlfriends not wanted any boy distractions coming into this year! The lounge was where Leading Ladies my film that's hitting festivals, had it's opening DIVA party this summer for OUTFEST. That's was a cool reminder about my ACTOR SELF coming out of finishing casting for a FEATURE that some actors thought I was Playing the LEAD ROLE, but that situation happened to show me I couldn't be fully seen with this particular person. - wow quite a tangent!
So back to my morning I wrote a gratitude list......I would learn later at 5am when my day ended, I would be asked to make a gratitude list haha PERFECT. So here it is.....
Gratitude up to 2011 @ 31 years old.
I am grateful for living in California, for having been in love, for experiencing breaks, acting, dancing, writing, casting, directing, learning guitar, healing and healing others, paying bills, making debt, clearing debt, learning new things in school and out, making friends, loosing friends, facing deaths, finding transformation, traveling north and south and east and west of this country, building a solid foundation, clearing out old patterns, experiencing new ways, Being in the moment, struggling with ego, having good sex, bad sex,and GREAT SEX, being treated bad and good, finding and owning my worth, developing my business side, seeing myself more clearing and others ass the truly are, out with the old in with the new, making everyday and day of gratitude, trust source to find the "right" way, not needing to force or pursued outcomes, knowing today is my day and it's all we ever really have, I am fulfilled in each moment for as long as they last, I love you, I love me, I love the ocean and the trees, I am thankful for breath and earth and each day I have to share myself and the experience with others, Thank you for the lessons 2010. We did alot of growing and changing together. Thank you for bringing me to a particular house randomly that became my beakin and symbol of hope and love consciousness and the potential of creative power which also brought me to gratitude attitude! And specifically Stacie for bringing me to westside and letting me use her car and feeding me healthier foods, Savi for showing my strength and worth, Athena for the perfect mirror of myself and the mutual support and understanding we share, Robin for helping and supporting my business and personal sanity and giving me the AMAZING reading with Dr. Carbone. And everyone else my family and friends and co-workers who have supported my with finacial payment for a job or service or with love, encouragement and understanding. To my parents for the creative gifts they handed down to me, the love & sacrifices they gave, the blood, cells and breath they created for me! I literally thank them for my LIFE! And mr. eckles, the thr roundabout cycles we danced to get me a step closer to my divine partner.
I go on the acknowledge myself for everything I am and I won't bore you with all of that, but would like to encourage you to do the same. It's a way I'm fully being present to owning myself, all my parts that make the whole, and not all are comfortable yet. ei, I am Beautiful, I am Adundant, I am Nicole Heather Dionne, I am Powerful, I am a Lover, I am a bitch in the best possible way, I am an artist, I am a sister....etc etc etc So I thank me for being all those things!
Why not put your attention on all that you are grateful for? If you want a blessed life be that you are blessed!
And a reminder that this work came to me from cafe Gratitude - their ABOUNDING RIVER WORKBOOK - Get one! And start your new year with a new YOU!
www.cafegratitude.com
BE LOVE
xo - me
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