Fighting a cold...healing with Plant Spirits

So I got a little lax again. But I swear I have been fighting a cold all weekend. Like not full force but the drained feeling and the sore throat. Of course I get that right before a musical Audition which is tomorrow. We'll see how I feel tomorrow.

Just got home from dance rehearsal and my brain is a little mushed so pardon me. But excited cause I have space available to me to start my dance project if I can get everything else together. I feel like I have been in fast forward and pulled in a few different directions and now I need a week vacation. Which I sure sounds rediculous to most people since I don't have a regular job. But I sware all the shit I do you and energy I put out in every moment I feel like I'm working over over time! Not complaining! I love that I'm getting to do what I enjoy but I wondering how I could manage it all a little better and conserve some energy. Its tricky.

I'm getting better at focusing on important or beneficial things as opposed to drama. I'm not as easily engaged in it now a days. Although I did have a mini episode last week....I said better not cured! But now I'm not attracting as much and when people do try to engage me in it I either get turned off by them and avoid them or nip it in the bud. I've been the open window for too long. Its like Ive been walking around with a sign on my head that reads please dump bullshit here. NO MORE! I don't mind being there for someone if they need an ear here and there but you can tell the difference talking to someone who has a therapist, trying to get help...(usually cause they say well my therapist says)...or there's the one's that elect you to listen, because you are free. Wouldn't it be great to get a machine somehow connected to your phone that would keep track of the minutes wasted listening to someone bitch and complain about something they put themselves in and refused to get themselves out of? Then a play back would be great too, so after tallying the bill you can say, hey, here listen to that incredible narcissism? Is that fun to you? No right? .30 cents a minute please!

These of course are the same people who will cut you off while you try to confide in them, or give you the guilt trip texts when you don't respond. "well you must be happy" really? Sound a bit passive aggressive? I am good, because I'm not swimming in your shit with you, sorry! One of my therapist/spiritual counselors once told me to 1) monitor my calls, to check in with myself before being at the beck and call of everyone else, there is voice-mail for a reason. and 2)saying NO is a spiritual YES....ahhhh those are two great things to adopt in life. Anyways! This was so not where I was going with this blog when I started! haha

Plant Spirits! Yeh! I payed a visit to a very magical, nurturing, talented woman today who I have gone to for Mugwort treatments before. I haven't been in a few weeks actually maybe 2 months. Oh boy did I need it. I felt so good afterward! And I journeyed man! woahhh, I saw my right arm glowing like a wand, An old man working on my right injured leg-who kept telling me to step..I have to step into my own projects and ideas and goals, A cobra snake and I was dancing like a snake charmer and a voice told my I could allure anything I wanted once I owned this power then a flashed through a lot of personal goals, and a dance production Ive seen before but more elaborate The Tree of Life Dance I call it, went to my peaceful place and played with my doggies in green pastures, then I had huge wings and was kind of a human hawk lady, then I saw me in a wedding dress and it had symbols of all the elements, such a cool frigging dress, layers, Lacey, & feathery, we were getting married on the beach, earth beneath our feet, wind in our hair, water by our side and fire burning in front of us, it was beautiful but I'm NOT sure who I was marrying! lol

Then I met my spirit animal and he took me to cool places and had me repeat these words. "I have ALL that I need right now. I am Powerful and I am Mighty. I heal because I am Healed, I trust because I am trustworthy, I love because I am loved. I bring in All that I want to receive to ME, this holds true, 3 x 3 x 3, Blessed Be"